I can’t quite describe what happened. It was almost as though something flew out of the sky… Directed straight towards me with no uncertainty. Its purpose was to obstruct my path, and strike me full force in the face. An impact so large on an emotional scale that I would, in all my dramatic glory, liken its effects to the Cambrian Explosion. But to see someone riddled with even a hint of what I felt crippled me. I couldn’t help but take a sordid trip down memory lane. I’ve been so caught up in everything ‘hearts and flowers’ (pardon the Fifty Shades quote) that I’ve managed to distract myself from the occupational hazard of happiness… For it to be ripped away with no warning.
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Street Lights
If highways and roads are the earth’s veins, the hundreds of miles of train tracks are hidden energy flows – sources of emotion. Whether it be happy or sad, it is unimportant. For their abundance means, regardless of their nature, the effect is overwhelming. It consumes the land, yet is unspoken. Some of these tracks are untouched by others, engulfed by silence and a sense of indisputable serenity and sacredness, yet with an overhang of loneliness and misinterpretation. Those we display are polished, made as appealing to the human eye as feasibly possible . Yet those rugged, rusted stretches are what we hold close, leaving their destinations unknown to all but ones self. Forming an almost sick manifestation with a true masochistic relationship.
Most don’t want to revisit what lurks, some could liken this trip down memory lane to a bone chilling ghost train. Haunted by our own ghouls. Showcasing all our imperfections. Unwanted uniqueness. All of which drop us into the category of being human. Too much time and a fleeting dabble with an inquisitive nature will lead to a life on the tracks. Occasionally bursting through the foliage, returning to a known location, characterised by the all to familiar sounds and smells of civilisations. Areas in which all our resources are exploited. With street lights leading to every crevice being excavated and shared with all those that past.
However for some, this encounter with ‘normality’ is brief, they hop aboard the next carriage to lead them to their primeval burnt orange slats. Their familiarity, even though it be morbid, provides a comfort.
It is rare that you see a couple hand in hand unearthing the could be treasures or curses of this complex matrix. Is it wrong to want someone to stand by me, help me place one foot in front of the other and complete my diesel stained voyage of self acceptance and discovery.
Ride.
It can all be fun and games, filled with laughter and joy. It can be home to things of exceptional beauty not before seen. It can be the beginning of a lifelong adventure or a fleeting moment of shared hedonism. The path can be treacherous with objects, obstructions, blurring the end point. But open arms cannot be folded. One must choose the one they share this journey with carefully, for one does not run with strangers through the night. Once intricate ties have been made, creating a magnetism, one can only hope that the path leads to unity, rather than a wedge of infinite existence. As the saying goes – one cannot ignore an elephant in the room.
However, if and when the last leaf drops and it is over, one does not want to remember it for its stark, unforgiving, hard truths. One wants to look back after darkness to find it riddled with blossom, light on everything. One cannot subject themselves to the trap of just seeing the bad, we have such a tendency to label things in the way they ended. Why can one not overlook the ending whether its been or yet to come, and instead ‘enjoy the ride’? For we do not label the end of ones existence with negativity just for they are no longer with us – we celebrate what was and take with us all the good. Have faith in the one you choose, ultimately trust yourself, take their hand indefinitely, and find delight in the bumps on the road.